6 Months.

Wow... 6 months already?!

It's one of those things when you're in the middle of it, it feels like forever. 

But then you look back and wonder how the time went so fast. 

Man. This has been an adventure. 

Not one of my choosing, of course. 

But, none the less, quite the adventure. 

If you are in the dark as to what I'm talking about, today, April 7, 2016, marks 6 months ago that my mama passed away. 

Thank you Lord for providing the ULTIMATE palace in Heaven for all of us sinners to come to for rest when our time here on Earth is done. You are such a gracious and merciful God to allow us to be freed from our sins. We are completely full of sin and selfish, yet you care for us SO deeply, that all You ask is that we declare you as our one and only God. 

So, Lord, I give my life to You. Every single day. You are the almighty one. The only one who can wash my sins away and make me white as snow once more. I believe that Jesus was sent here on Earth to save us from our sinful ways. And I know that he has saved us by sacrificing himself in the most painful way possible. 

You are the way, the truth and the life. 

One sweet day, mama, I will see you again. In heaven. It's not my time yet, but one day, I'll be there with my husband, our puppy, our children, and our children's children. 

I'm so sad that I can't have you here on Earth to experience life with you. But I know that you have not left me. I feel you every single day. I see the signs you give me to know that you're here. I pray with you every night before bed. 

I'm elated that you don't have to be in ANY pain ever again. Thank you Lord for that. 

I love you so much mama. More than you will ever know. There will always be a spot in my heart for my mama that no one can ever replace. 

The pain of you being gone has not gone away. I just have to learn how to deal with it. 

You are an incredible mother, and the best one there will ever be. So I can only hope to be half as amazing as you are. 

I know you're dancing around in heaven to some salsa music, or the Beatles, or Patsy Cline.  {And you've probably already had everyone over to your house for a BBQ/party} And for that, I am so grateful. 

I miss you every single day.

I love you mama. Always.